Perfect.

I cant be perfect. i cant make everyone happy., being myself is so hard.
i just want to give up, but people think im so strong...
see im trying to please people again.
I lost my faith. i lost my hope.

im just not MEJRA anymore. i pretend to be happy and NO ONE sees through it, but one person and i just push her away more and more
Even im ashamed of myself. hearing my dad and mom cal me , "fat, ugly, a whore" and other things everyday, make me start to believe it, and when they act like they love me and then break my heart again, it makes me believe in love less and less. i just dont know what to turn too, b/c i always seem to get let down, or let someone down.

im sorry i cant be perfect.

Why?

Why can people ever mind there own business? i mean if you dont know the truth dont make things up.
i live the way i want too, dont intrude. i get tired of people making things up, if you really knew me, youd know none of those rumors are EVEN CLOSE TO BEING TRUE. so DONT tell my brother you KNOW its true. and why cant you understand that im human and i cant always do whats right. im gonna screw up
and you making fun of me, wont help. calling me fremo(freak and emo put together), breaking my heart and THINKING YOU KNOW WHATS BEST ME, ISN'T HELPING.
being extra hard on me, b/c im tough and can handle it? yeah im not so tough. im broken.

I Wish.

I wish people would see behind the tears. Behind my fake smile. Behind everything!
Remember when i told you i stopped cutting?
yeah. i lied
Remember when i told you i was done with drugs?
i lied again.
AND DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN YOU ASKED HOW I LOST WEIGHT?
AND I TOLD YOU THAT IVE BEEN RUNNING?

well... you didn't catch that lie, didja?
Ive been making myself throw up.

i just wish people would care enough to LOOK beyond everything.

I Need A Reason

My Best Friends name?
Music.
and then, LAUREN(:

Because people always find a way to break my heart. and i dont trust anyone anymore.
i dont do drugs for fun, i do them to forget. and it works , when i wake up, i remember none of my problems.
People change too much, too fast.

heartbreak.

i may not be as skinny as the other girls,
or as pretty as them
but i'll give you something they never will.
i will love you will all my heart , unconditional real love

"it's a tragedy thats so sad to see"