That Should Be Me.

Your supposed to be one of my best friends? My cousin? I've known you for 14 years now, but you continue to mess with my emotions. You grabbed my phone and took my bestest friend number and started talking to him, then turned him against me. Then you took the guys number who i am falling for number? And you started SEXTING him right in front of me? I don;t understand? you KNOW i love him, but you want to break my heart? I've been a great friend to you, right? I mean, I've tried my best. I just want to know why?

Then did you really have to text him off my phone telling him how i feel about him? You just ruined mine and his friendship, he hasn't texted me since that night. I'm confused, i really am, Clear this up for me? Please.

Am I Just Talking To Myself?

Why do i feel so alone? I have so many "friends" who "care" about me, but i feel so alone.
I'm lying to myself, im crying out for help, i just dont seem to be able to help myself.
I feel so fake, i hate everything I've become.
I've lost the people i care most for.
I have this thing against people, i cant seem to trust them
because every single person I've trusted stabbed me in the back,
i dont even trust people when they say something like
"oh sorry, i fell asleep" i think "oh, this person just doesn't want to talk to me"
But i keep getting my heart broken,
yeah it might be your lie, but its my heart and feelings on the line.
and when you judge me, it doesn't help.